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Greetings!
Cepatnya masa berlalu! Genap setahun from my last post (I think?). Hahaha!
Sooooo how am I now? Am I better than last year? :)))
NOPE
NOPE
NOPE
Who am I kidding?
I apologize to the past-me. I haven't changed at all. I am still that miserable little piece of shit.
If not, worse. (I even had suicidal thoughts haha)
I'm sorry, me :')
The only thing that has changed since before is the fact that I am now a fourth year student! I don't know how to feel about this. I mean, yeah, I am happy that I passed my papers last year. I also finally managed to get A for the last semester.
But my life is not getting better at all. I know I keep whining but - well, I hate myself for that too. I find myself being less happy each day, losing interest in whatever I used to have fun doing. Hmm. Maybe I need help. No, I really need help. I want some help. Honestly.
I am extremely exhausted with my own thoughts. With myself. I wanna run away from who I am. I need a break from everything.
UGH.